I think to know whether or not you're feeling far from God, you would first have to know what it feels like to be close to God. The first time I ever truly encountered God was at a Healing Mass at a Catholic church. For most of you out there I know that's difficult to grasp and it might not fit neatly into the nice little box you've put God in and all that you comprehend Him to be (if that's where you're at right now, we can still be friends), but it's true. And knew as positively as I know that I'm sitting on a chair right know and pounding away at my laptop that
1: there is a God, cause He just made Himself profoundly known to me
2: He dwells in indescribable light and
3: He is the epitomy of LOVE, comparable to nothing you will EVER find on earth.
Keep in mind that as a Catholic, I thought I knew God because I was a "good Catholic" and I had never really read the Bible, for a myriad of stupid reasons told to me by the well meaning adults in my life at the time. So I did not know that God has said revealed Himself countless times in His word as dwelling in unapproachable light (1Tim6:16), that He is Light (John 8:12), or that He is Love (1John4:8).
Back to the Healing Mass, I think I was however old one is in eighth grade. While I was raised to fear God enough in the sense that I took church seriously, it did not translate to my life. By eighth grade, I had smoked weed a few times, drank alcohol on occasion and had given my virginity away to the first guy who said he loved me. I really wasn't anyone worthy of meeting God while still on earth
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